Written on the Back of My Notebook

I take each step sloooowly,
And watch as the mountains collide into the sea.
The sky is a magical collection of colors and shapes.
It seems like a fake…but it’s not.
I have a vision in mind for you.
Send your chaos and fears away.
Fill the echo and sound with array,
Making sonic speed go faster.
Allow yourself to fall asleep; to dream,
But not long enough so you miss the punchline;
So you miss the moment.
Just long enough to have enough energy for the rest of your life.
I take each step slowly
And breathe each breath I get.
When the thing you look forward to most is breathing
Everything else just seems to fall into place
Everything else becomes maintenance
Because you get to say, “I lived my dream, today.”
AND I LIVE MINE EVERY DAY!

Waking Up Is The Best Dream Ever

Dear God,

Thank you for school, books, homework, and learning.
For early mornings, for sleepy eyes, and beds.
For friends who love and care for me.
Thank you for growth.

Thanks.


(Photo by Jenna Owen)

When Everything Else Comes and Goes (You Remain Steady)

Request

Could you fall from my hands into God’s hands? I hope, I hope you do.
Cuz you’re faith is something more than I can give you, and you’re losing it.

Yep, I've Been There, Too.

I've lived the life you're living now. I've been drunk every night. I've been obliterated. I guess I just got tired of feeling useless after a night of heavy drinking. I got tired of throwing up. I got tired of feeling like I was going nowhere with my life. So I decided to go somewhere. And that somewhere was the road; and that somewhere was returning to God; and that somewhere led to sobriety. And that sobriety led me to feeling better about myself than I'd ever felt; and that sobriety led to the clearest mind I've ever had; and that sobriety led me to the best high I'd ever experienced; and that sobriety led me to the best feeling in the world - freedom. I'm not saying that that's the same feeling everyone has after multiple nights of drinking, uselessness, but for me it was. I had nights were I would think, "I am wasting a bunch of effing time right now! I don't want to sit here any longer," as I'd sit on a couch, intoxicated, "I want to make something; I want to do something productive; I want to be away from this life I'm living, I know that for sure." 

There are some who proclaim that they are more productive while intoxicated. I used to think that too...but eventually, it got to me, and wore me (and my body) out. Mostly, when I was under the influence, I just wanted to go to sleep. 

Now I'm not saying I've never made anything good while under the influence, but I will say that nothing I created was as good as when I was sober. All I'm saying, I guess, is that I know where you're coming from when you say, "I'm young, and I just want to live it up right now." But honestly, I want to tell you, one heart to another, if you really want to live it up....go to God. Look at the sky. Be grateful. Live honest. Listen quietly. And remember how nice it is just to get to breathe air for once. If you really want to find joy...believe in yourself, and follow your heart. If your biggest dreams involve getting drunk with your friends, I think you should come talk to me. Call me crazy, but believe it or not, I have lived the life you are living...and I have found something so much greater than that. I will share it with anyone who wants to come. Pursue your dreams, believe in yourself, and ask advice from those who have gotten there (or who are at least on their way).

Don't get caught up on "this and thats" that you miss out on what's most important, "Love God; Love Others." Love means, showing genuine care and concern for something else.